It is weird how a man’s wants can be another man’s needs. It is a sad realisation, isn’t it?
Ishani is a good friend of mine and shares her feelings with me. I am a good friend and I let her pour out her emotions that had been torturing her. Today, I decided to get some things off my chest too.
So, Ishani is just another dreamer and achiever from just another tier 3 city of our nation. She went to a convent school unlike the majority of her neighbourhood kids. Oh! I am one of those kids, from her locality, who went to public state board schools. My parents always conversed over dinner about how fluently Ishani can read English headlines on DD News. Well, I could read the alphabets from the headlines as well. Ishani was just one step ahead and could identify the words made up from those alphabets put together. Again, she took part in all these Olympiads and events which I only wrote about in informal letters during Spoken English tuitions. My parents adored her. Yes, appreciation of her “participation certificate” more than my “2nd prize” medal always disheartened me but I knew my achievements didn’t stand in front of her participation. Long story short, I admired her school, her fluency in English and her parents who always talked to me in English. Sadly, I could never reply back to them in English.
Ishani grew up to score a mighty 71 percent in her 10th boards and went to Bengaluru for her higher secondary education. I wanted to move to Bengaluru too and I was pretty confident about my admission with 89 percent. However, I only knew Hindi and Bhojpuri fluently and my tone was ridiculed even by the auto-wala-bhaiyyas there. However, my marks saved me some grace and I proudly completed my higher secondary education in a central school in my city. I scored less than 70 percent but my spoken English tuition had finally paid off. I could understand English movies only with the subtitles and now that I could also speak about myself without stuttering, I could finally move to Bengaluru.
Life is surprising though and apparently, a Bhojpuri tone while speaking English got me shooed away and I landed in Indore. Indore felt free, to be honest. The auto-wala-bhaiyya here never rejected me and I started to wear leggings and jeans with my knee-length kurtis. Yes, getting my parents to pay for letting me wax my arms was a very tricky task. They could not understand how my best friends felt embarrassed to go have momos with me because of my hairy arms. Gradually, I even stopped taking my dupattas to college and no one judged me. In fact, I was so surprised by how light I felt without a dupatta on my chest. My parents do not support me completely but I score good grades, have become a member of students’ association and I haven’t told them that I have two male friends as well. So, they are proud of how modern I have become.
Society has nothing good to talk about me though! They keep whining about how I have forgotten my culture and how this wave of feminism has ruined me. I never bothered about them nor have I craved for their approval. However, deep down inside, I always wanted to let Ishani know that I have become modern as well. I never got that chance because we never visited home at the same time. Our holidays never matched at all. However, this lockdown we finally came together just like the good-old-times and we spend time talking to each other about our colleges, visit each other’s homes and she has even taught me how maintaining ‘Snap Streaks’ marks sophistication. All the neighbours are just star-struck by how she carries herself and how she has not changed a bit.
To be brutally honest, she is a hypocrite. I have seen her pictures wearing shirts and skirts on social media. She wore all fashionable and modern clothes until she got bored with them and now she preaches how Indian attires like saree, ghagra and embroidered dupattas bring out the true beauty of Indian girls.
She often talks for hours about feminism and tells me that I should not wax and encourage patriarchy. I don’t understand how she can feel caged by removing body hair. I wonder what has gotten into her! In fact, she is going around our neighbourhood teaching other teen girls to not fall into the trap of modernisation and wear kurtis with dupattas, bindi and patiala-salwar to look the prettiest. What a fool she is! But this lockdown, I have decided that I won’t let her do this. I have been struggling for the past two years to convince all my neighbours to let their girls wear jeans and Ishani cannot ruin it all with her illogical preachings.
I don’t understand how to make her understand this liberation but I will definitely find a way. I have sent a text to Rudra- the students’ association leader – for help. He is a great person and he would definitely guide me. I got a bit frustrated with his puzzling and philosophical reply but I am smart and I will decode it. Meanwhile, can you help me with the decoding?
Here’s what Rudra has texted:
“FREEDOM – /ˈfriːdəm/ the power or right to do or say what you want without anyone stopping you
CHOICE – /tʃɔɪs/ the right to choose; the possibility of choosing
Pragya, you have your freedom to make the choice of the right answer for yourself. Best wishes. :)”